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Friday, August 11, 2006Y
8:15:00 PM
[ 21162(4)(M) is mine! me greatest regrets!!]
din realise till this morning they discuss that today take chi O result. haiix it release at 1oam to the school... i was that nervous till i cried during SS at AVA room. went down to see result.. i saw this.. my 1st reaction was like "F**K!" den i get outta crowd , saw mui.. i was like get to her , "hug" her and really cry.. and i realise its been long long long long time that i had a real cry. my tap water can't close.. not i wanna open.. is can't close.. dunno why.. perhaps im disappointed in myself.. sad about myself / result i've got.. or hate myself for that.. whatever ppl can tink of.. can see that chi means alot to me?? if this damn subj get a stupid B4 for me.. i dun need to take other subj alrdy. haiixx many things make me feel that i dunno myself that well. not as well as my fren does. no matter how hard it is.. i wan to retake! sorry ppl if i offend ya in any way today. im really can't take it. usually i can fake a smile for u even when im sad , but not this time. sorry. anyway.. tomorrow going to have GIOVIALITA celebration! hope its going to cheer me up bahx. today wadever i see is in black and white... i can't be alone for this period.. cuz i'll tink alot.. and ..... why im always not the lucky ones.. ><
